00:00 Make a wish.

如果缘分到了
有机会遇到一个欣赏我的
真心付出,对待我的人
应该会接受吧
回想以前有点太傻
不懂珍惜
他走了以后
还有另一个的出现
我很佩服他的毅力和耐心
虽然在一起了
但我的心还是在以前的他的身上
第二个的付出,我完全不以为意

我应该早点明白
喜欢的他
并不一定会是那个陪自己一起走的人
喜欢的他
可以放在心里的某个角落
并不一定要得到

现在又有同样的事情发生
由一开始
我就不奢望我们会有什么
跟你相处,很开心
因为你很了解我
但是
我只希望你们能好好的一直走下去
要明白一对情侣要走在一起
是不容易的事

而我
就希望我可以找个男朋友
让我有个机会去感受他对我的好
也能让我有机会让我珍惜一个
我未来会爱上的他 =)

pity.

I just realized I had been no longer an optimistic person.
the only things which make me laugh

are the moments when I chat with you

and watching BigBang's videos

their happiness influence me as I'm watching their videos

I automatically laugh out loud and happily from my heart

It's the only one could cure my sadness.

I'm HAPPY once I watch their videos

the ways they act, the ways they speak

sparkling my days

The problem is

are these the ONLY ways to make me happy?

I don't want it.

I used to have several ways to cure my sadness

but I found them have lost, but since when?

好朋友只是朋友.

我竟然会希望有个男朋友..
想继续等待一个不可能的人
但,我们是不可能的
或许,了解自己的人..
却不会演变成一对情侣
和自己一起的那个人
却不是了解自己的人..

unachievable goal.

I were once insisted for studying the major I loved so much
I tried so hard no matter how
but the problems keep on appearing on the way I was chasing my dream
when we rely on other
whatever he said/ whatever decision he made
we gonna listen to and follow it
we gonna do it by ownself
chase the dream, get the things we want
no one could promise letting you rely on
we are the one
who would never break the promises to ourselves
Studying might not the only option for my future
I could have more in future

I have lost the chance for studying abroad
yes, I have lost it
but I could earn more for my brother, at least
I still have a chance not to let my brother experienced what I have experienced
so, I shouldn't cry/care about this like there is no hope anymore.

p/s: I will have lots of friends who will be having master level of studies in the future =)