pity.

I just realized I had been no longer an optimistic person.
the only things which make me laugh

are the moments when I chat with you

and watching BigBang's videos

their happiness influence me as I'm watching their videos

I automatically laugh out loud and happily from my heart

It's the only one could cure my sadness.

I'm HAPPY once I watch their videos

the ways they act, the ways they speak

sparkling my days

The problem is

are these the ONLY ways to make me happy?

I don't want it.

I used to have several ways to cure my sadness

but I found them have lost, but since when?